LONELY_ALONE

being lonely,
being alone,
just named all the synonym words above all,
really,
I'm just fine..
and really, I meant it...

as even among crowded,
I'm still crawl in my own world..
despite all this,
I'm not in a position to tell,
I'm not in a position to yell,
instead,
I'm not in a position to even open my sense to absorb swell..

one might wonder why I'm so calm..
to deal with so many things that might be much troublesome to others..
just because,
I'm not in a position to even open my sense to absorb swell..
even to rely on person was too much for me as it might hurt even more..

at some point, I thought I could hold back a little,
I should open what I closed for so many years..
beyond the crowd,
I thought I found..
I thought I found..
I really thought I found..

above all trouble, hardship, you put me through,
never even cross in my mind to chatter..
just because,
I thought I found..
I thought I found..
I really thought I found..

right now,
with the tiny space love in my heart,
its broken..
totally broken..
that tiny little space just scattered away..
when you clearly state with all your sense that way...
really how I wish you just tell me your tongue just happened to slip away..
firmly stand by my side sounds extremely ridiculous to me
getting used to be alone as it not bother me much
just that right now its time to get used,
to be with someone who makes me feel alone..

thanks for the phrase : I'm talking the truth, its you..
with all these scattered left,
I'm surrender,
welcoming back my own world,
where silence,
tears,
and only ALLAH comfort..